When you're falling apart

How could I have been stupid enough to let my feelings run away from me?! I AM SO PISSED OFF at myself, STUPID IDIOT! Then you try to take it all back and your left holding shards in your hands..... At the worst I fake it, I try to kidd myself into beliveing I'm done. Heck I CAN NOT WAIT to be over this! Im so so so so so so so so so dumb. Lord I need  you to get me through this, Make me strong. I can't do it on my own. Help me!